I do when I'm too exhausted to think anymore- or when I'm visiting Alpha and we've finished a bottle of rum. Or when my chem cubes aren't acting up.

[ IT takes three, now. One vapor, one line of medication, one pill. It's never taken that much before.]

...after a fashion. You want to do well you join the Militia. You get bored with regular training you get into espionage. You meet the most fascinating man you've ever known. You sleep with him. You learn from him. And when he kills himself you replace him.